"Waking Up" At 30

Last year, I turned 30 in March. For some reason, it didn't seem to hit me until May.
The question, " What have I done with my life?" kept nagging at my brain. As I took a long, hard look at the last decade of my life. The realization of how much time I had wasted was significant.
Now, don't get me wrong. I used my 20's how I believe they were meant to be spent. Learning where you belong in this world and discovering what you don't like, but I never pushed myself to get out of my own bubble. Then the last half was spent in what felt like a thick fog, and I couldn’t fully wake up. That started the deep shadow work that led me to another nagging question. Who even am I, what are my values, and what do I even like? It seemed sad to realize that I truly had no idea.
I took the advice I've seen people say, just start with doing hobbies you loved doing as a child. My problem was that I couldn't even remember what I used to love. Cue the Neville meme

I was learning how to get into data analysis when a YouTube video about print-on-demand auto-played. A path I wanted to try years ago, but talked myself out of it. Then the question “What if I just tried for one year?” popped into my head. I wanted to quit my 9-5 job due to extreme burnout, so if a miracle happened, I could finally work from home. If I failed, at least I could say I finally tried. I needed to practice learning how to stick with something even when it gets hard, and I don’t understand it right away. As well as consistency, because the only thing I seemed to be most consistent at being was being inconsistent.
Even if the blog isn't widely read, its main purpose is to help me reflect on my journey. If it ends up helping someone else along the way, that's an added bonus.
When June arrives, I will have reached one year of working to stay committed despite setbacks. For the next couple of months, my goal is to build consistency by sharing more on social media and documenting this growth here.
If you made it this far, thank you again for reading my random ramblings.
I hope I write again,
Beth :)